.....i like the idea of a constant.

Something that is always there a theme, a solid, a given.
In our home there are various constants and just as many flibbergy up in the air winging it hold onto your hats moments as well.
SO i have started a quilt the constant being a 20x20cm square with a needle turn appliqued circle. The variable? the fabric no planning just grabbing and cutting using up the stash and going with it.

Things thou lately have been up in the air, out of sorts out of my hands.
It was around the time i made a decision about 6 months ago,to face some demons, challenge the past and shake things up.

I decided i wanted to go back to school.
Now a little back story from the age of um 14 i was diagnosed with
M E.
Back then it was hard to get a diagnoses that didn't label you a drop out a crank or a bludger. Things were pretty shite there for a long while.
If not for a mum that never gave up was a bulldog when needed and an advocate for myself and my brothers
{i think that's where i get it from!} I'm not sure what would have happened.
Missing so much school being despondently unwell and being a teen made for some unhappy educational experiences.I left school part way into year 12, took some time, entered the workforce and well then started my family.
I figured that was it i would never go to uni that was my lot and it suited me.
But i regretted leaving, giving up.

Jackson asked me earlier this year "if he could be xyz" when he grew up.
I told him that he lives in a time and a country that if he works hard he can be
whatever he likes, anything. In that moment it all became clear.
I can be
whatever i like.
So began a journey that has been emotional, full on, challenging and blinking hard work with no guarantee that it would pay off.
To all those around me thanks for putting up with me, we did it!

I'm going to be a nurse when i grow up:)
love fi xo